not sure how to explain this but is there such a "condition" of humans to want to be completly isolated but at the same time not? Ive been like this for quite a while after quite a lot of heavy things bugging me (big time) one of things being lost my job due to a liar, long story, and so im trying to see friends again but in my mind it isint the same and my brain feels "out of sync", at the last minute I cancel to meetup and continue and preferably being alone. Not sure if makes sense but feel happy and not happy at the same time. I went to see a male friend who I dont really bother with atall and after 5 mins I got agitated and sneaked out his flat without any goodbye or warning after months of avoiding him anyway have seen "that model" girl few days ago and spent whole day and was actually happy that day, yet still getting the nag in my head to be alone as its a constant fight. "that model" wants me to go on night out with her for her birthday to pubs so I think that will take mind off stupid stuff

not sure if any of that makes sense

Anyone experianced similar and any way to fix?

Yes, in fact I'm a bit like that at the moment, I'm back in college at the age of 27 and I can tell you that getting "wasted" in soulless clubs is not my idea of a night out, though I would to take them all to a pub to play Scrabble. I think put simply, you need to expand your horizons, go travelling, see a bit more of the world. When you get back you'll see how small your life was, and no wonder you were getting irritable, in my experience it's always been cabin fever; wanderlust.

Whatever you do, don't get yourself down and isolate yourself further, do the opposite, try to find something that will both make you excited, challenge you and expand your life experience.

Maybe learn Spanish, work in an orphanage in Peru, don't worry about stuff, just get yourself a plane ticket, organic farming? Couch surfing? Be less judgemental.

Firstly, a night out with “that model” sounds like it could be a tonic for you in itself. Enjoy it.

If you are feeling low a lot of the time, it could be down to isolation as well as other pressures on you. I work from home, and I’m on my own pretty much all of the time. Solitude can be a boon, but it can also be a curse. It’s a double edged sword.

I think the suggestions of going out - evening classes, clubs, etc., is a good one. Why not join a camera club? You seem interested in the subject - explore it with others as well as on your own.

Ye I did enjoy that night out with model, I still feel rotten though, its like standing on slow quicksand and the lower I got the unhappier I get so I have to work at it in my head to remain a false sense of "happiness" I feel "normal" alone indoors but once im outside or near people im irritable and just need to go back alone as fast as possible never used to be like that. Few friends wanting to meet me up and I stood ALL of them up in the last few weeks. I question why the hell they would want to see a moron like me anyway, I am boring and im scum tbh. I dont consider myself a nice person. brain kinda simulates "fear" when near humans and I close up just not sure how to tackle this

You may be depressed, do something about it, find something that works for you, but at least talk to someone about it who knows you.

+1. Probably no "may" about it.

It's easier to get out of the cycle if you have some help. Finding the right person may be difficult. Could be a friend, could be a stranger (?therapist). Fisrt step is realising there's a problem, which you've done by posting.

I agree with whats' been said by leeds_manc and mikepgood. You need to talk to someone.
If you don't want to talk to someone face to face you could give the Samaritans a try. Or go and see your doctor and ask to be referred to a psychologist/therapist.
If you are employed by a reasonably sized company you may have access to support services or occupational health services who may be able to help, similar services would also probably be available if you are at college or university.

Don't let it fester, seek help and remember you are not alone.

hm, samaritans is 5 miles away but I cant bring myself to it -.-

curious if anyone can relate to this, had it a few days now, I can feel my windpipe just above my chest or kinda on it pulsing every now and again, its not sore or anything its a really numb soft sensation, anyone know what has caused this? not that I care much if its a bad thing or not, just curious. Bear in mind that these days I barely eat much due to circumstances -.- I have breakfast at 2pm now....

Go and see a doctor.
Tell them all the symptoms you're having - this includes the emotional/mood side of things.

Do it tomorrow.

Bratty, you need to remember that you have Asperger's. Asperger's isn't like full-blown autism - you still have all of the same moods and emotions as someone without Apserger's. However, it does make it much more difficult for you to recognise or control those emotions or certain emotional changes. If you do have an emotional problem, such as depression or anxiety, then you might not sense things that would help the rest of us.

Your family, your friends and especially your doctor, however, can help you work out what's going on in your head. Most importantly though, your doctor can help you do something about it.

Please go to your doctor.

family is out the question, patronising idiots to be blunt, not comfortable with most of my family and I never tell them anything of any sort

friends is a no go also as I hate being negative towards people etc

You know the answer then.

(Doctor)

Well, phone them!


Completely misread this, and spent some time wondering why a circumcision would alter your eating habits!

OK, seriously though... see a doctor or phone The Samaritans, but don't just do nothing about it.

looks like doctor is out the question too, receptionist said nothing available for 2 weeks, but I had to ask what doctors are available as some are a bit "funny" and her tone got worse when I said that as though she wants nothing to do with me, pisses me off when people are so wrapped up in "professionalism" anything that sounds too strange or the truth they dont like.

Its certainly true that I cant take the risk of seeing a "funny" doctor, I had to have a go at one for labelling me this and that before he even knew me, and another has a huge rep for being disgustingly sarcastic which hes hated by many apparently,

ps Typically theyre all scottish. Scum.

I wish that asian doctor was still there but his contract ran out

Whilst I sympathise with you and your condition, I cannot condone the above statement. I don't understand why the moderators on here allow your blatant racism but I do know that other forums would not tolerate your outbursts. You've been yellow carded previously but I for one have had enough of your conduct.

Al